I have been looking forward to blogging my running activity and my experiences to achieve my goals but my life was brought to a complete halt. It’s not me, it my other half, my husband. We have been battling together a fight with Ulcerative Colitis and we thought we were so far ahead. He had some minor relapses here and there but nothing like this one now. So I must ask, ” How did we get here??!!!”
To catch you up to speed..He leaves to Atlanta on a trip, gets sick on the trip, has an obstruction, now told he might have Chron’s ( the whole time and not UC), hospitalized in Atlanta and can’t get home, I fly up to keep him company and to keep an eye on the nurses (as I am one). So what do we do now? We wait…we wait…and see if the medications will kick in to decrease the inflammation and if that doesn’t work….surgery. We are praying that these meds kick in because if we need surgery we would want to do it back home.
So what am I feeling just to get it out there and off my chest?
- Torn: I long to have my husband well and happy and I miss my children so much ( and he does too). I’m torn because I can’t leave my husband and I really miss my children.
- Angry: At this horrible disease and how it has attacked my husband and family!! I HATE YOU!!
- Sad: I really want to cry because I don’t like the ride we are on to uncertainty.
- Numb and dizzy: I think the bullet somes this one up.
What do we do now:
1- PRAY, HAVE FAITH, PRAY
2- Breath in and out
3- Hold my husband’s beautiful hand through this.
If you have any positive quotes for me to focus on, please comment.