As you are aware I have been mentally busy with my husband’s illness. So I have decided to keep my mind busy with other things. I started the day with a prayer and have prayed quite a bit today.
Twitter has been my main source of entertainment. I love to read everyone’s updates and blogs. Before I started blogging, I never understood what the whole purpose was. I would ask myself, “why do people want to put their lives out there?” Now I know why. Reading other blogs has help me through this process that I am going through. I might not be able to get out there and run but at least I am running mentally through bloggers half marathon and marathons this weekend. I am so happy for them and I am very grateful that this whole blogging thing exists!!
Another type of blog that I have been reading are some blogs that I have found for Ulcerative Colitis and Crohn’s disease. I haven’t found to many and I think I will start incorporating support for spouses/parents who have a loved one with Crohn’s or Ulcerative colitis. I have definitely been here supporting my husband through this and being a nurse just might help others. I know how frustrating and helpless one feels during these times of complication of this disease.
So today will be a short blog and I wanted to share some of the blogs that I have enjoyed reading today.
This blog is one I read in the morning before my workout and I always find entertaining: http://theathletesplate.com/
MegaNerds http://meganerdruns.com/ She’s so positive!
Ali on the run: This girl is incredible ! She is a runner and is on a mission to kick Crohns disease in the butt! http://aliontherunblog.com/
Last and my ultimate favorite! Chasing the now, this girl is so amazing. She has achieved so much and is very genuine in her blog and that’s what I love about it. She doesn’t want to sell anything she just wants to accomplish life.
I hope you enjoy them as I have I will keep praying for my husband to get better and pray for others as well.
I have been looking forward to blogging my running activity and my experiences to achieve my goals but my life was brought to a complete halt. It’s not me, it my other half, my husband. We have been battling together a fight with Ulcerative Colitis and we thought we were so far ahead. He had some minor relapses here and there but nothing like this one now. So I must ask, ” How did we get here??!!!”
To catch you up to speed..He leaves to Atlanta on a trip, gets sick on the trip, has an obstruction, now told he might have Chron’s ( the whole time and not UC), hospitalized in Atlanta and can’t get home, I fly up to keep him company and to keep an eye on the nurses (as I am one). So what do we do now? We wait…we wait…and see if the medications will kick in to decrease the inflammation and if that doesn’t work….surgery. We are praying that these meds kick in because if we need surgery we would want to do it back home.
So what am I feeling just to get it out there and off my chest?
- Torn: I long to have my husband well and happy and I miss my children so much ( and he does too). I’m torn because I can’t leave my husband and I really miss my children.
- Angry: At this horrible disease and how it has attacked my husband and family!! I HATE YOU!!
- Sad: I really want to cry because I don’t like the ride we are on to uncertainty.
- Numb and dizzy: I think the bullet somes this one up.
What do we do now:
1- PRAY, HAVE FAITH, PRAY
2- Breath in and out
3- Hold my husband’s beautiful hand through this.
I had no idea that I would be running this marathon again, I didn’t enter this race but it looks like I have to complete it. I need to focus on his recovery and stay positive no matter what.
If you have any positive quotes for me to focus on, please comment.